As a kid, I was a cheerful, talkative, and exuberant kid of the family. Once I slipped and got injures on my chin and teeth. My teeth chipped off a little. I never realized these insecurities until high school. My couples of friends use to point me out every time I laughed maybe they have some sort of insecurities.
One day I was pointed out by my best friend. I went home and rehearsed in front of the mirror, tried noticing my teeth. I thought about how I would look if I laughed, searched on Google “How to laugh without opening your mouth”. Soon I started staying quiet and became an introvert. I was always afraid of speaking to people. I thought another person would laugh at me. Since that day, I haven’t laughed my heart out.
I always wanted to be a writer. The writing was my passion. I decided to join the classes and polish my skills. I wrote a few pieces and shared it with the instructor. My instructor busted out laughing and read it out to the whole class. My all fellows made fun of me. I was embarrassed, stepped out of the class with my bag pack, and never returned there. I encased my dream into a box and moved on. My heart always skipped a little whenever my younger siblings asked me to write an application for them. I could never write again.
How insecurities let me down
In grade 4, we use to have reading classes. I stammered at times, especially if I was nervous. Once my favorite English literature teacher asked me to read out page no 14. I was nervous as I wanted my impression to be the good one. I was fond of reading. It was my favorite job. As I began to read, I paused to stammer, as I was confused. My teacher giggled a little, but she covered her face.
I knew she was laughing at me, had tears in my eyes. I continued reading. But I couldn’t do it, as I was stammering a lot. My teacher laughed hysterically. I couldn’t take it anymore and tears rolled down my eyes. Every classmate had a smile on their face as if they were communicating with each other through their eyes. I sat down and never stood up for reading.
Always be kind with your words. You never know how bad it can influence someone’s life and personality.